A friend of mine told me that the best way to move on is to say everything that's on your mind and in your heart. She told me a story of how she started dating her boyfriend of many moons after she read what he wrote in her yearbook, telling her how he felt about her. So to finally move on from the boy that's been on my mind and in my heart since elementary school (who by the way is now dating someone else), I've decided to write a final statement to that chapter in my life since I'm too much of a coward to write it in his yearbook.
Grapefruit,
To think that it's been twelve years since I first saw that toothy grin of your and those dimpled cheeks. To think that we've come this far and grown this much and have watched each other develop into the people we are now. From the moment you handed me that hand-made card after the district spelling bee, you made me look at you so differently and I think that I've had these unexplainable feelings ever since. In my head, I'd like to believe that I've loved you for all this time and to this day. I've even questioned why Belle would choose the Beast over Gaston in middle school. Even when you were invested in somebody else, even when you never glanced my way even once... I cared all too much. To me, you're a beautiful person and every part of your being screams this. I admire your mind, your heart and your soul. I envy the way that you can articulate words to mean so much in so little. I envy the way that you can contemplate something much greater that yourself and not get lost in all the generality to live in the moment. I love the way that you love the people you care about and the way that you become passionate about the causes that matter to you. And I admire your soul for being so clear and unencumbered. Your poetry... is absolutely beautiful. Every time I read it or hear it, it pulls at some thing inside of me. Your words are valuable and your thoughts are priceless. I look at your smile and can't help but smile as well. I hear your laugh and I echo it myself. I know that no matter what you do in life, that you will try your hardest and do your best because even though you don't like to show others how hard you try, you do put effort in what you do and you take pride in what you know. So yeah, I feel like I've loved you to this day. Not necessarily romantically all the time but as a way of appreciating who you are as a person. No matter where you go or what you seek, I will be cheering you on in spirit.
Love,
A Plathian Lover
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