So I took my mid-year resolution a bit too far and let's just say I kinda went overboard on the whole find my place deal. So today I was THAT girl... you know the overly bubbly, abnoxious piece of crap that you wish would shut up.... yeah that was me. I butt into way too many conversations for my own good and I tried way to hard to "fit in". Of course this was an epic fail of epic proportions...
But beyond that today we had an out-of-state college fair at school and while people were scrambling to find out what college actually was... I was bored out of my mind. Not to be pretentious or anything but I've been dreaming of college and planning since the end of middle school and beginning of freshman year. So when all of my friends are like, "What's the common app?", I'm already thinking of grad school.
So I think I have it all planned out, from my resume and transcript, to standardized tests, to admissions, to undergrad programs and majors, to internships, and all the way to grad school. But now that I look at it, I feel like I've changed so much since beginning of freshman year and I'm starting to wonder if my "perfect plan" is too restricting. I mean what if I don't get in to my first choice college or get a scholarship? What if I decide that I don't want to major in biomedical engineering? What then?
I never really thought that I would need a backup plan... but now I'm starting to doubt myself. Why have I invested myself in only math and science when I love English and literature so much? Is this really what I want to be studying and doing for the rest of my life?
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