Reconcile

So let me just clarify. Though it ended badly with a lot of the people I "cared" about... that doesn't mean it stayed in awful situations.

Like for example, this guy in middle school was the biggest terd of all time. And it turned out he had a crush on me in high school later when he was still a terd but then after confrontation, I realized that he just didn't know how to act. Then we got to be really good friends and I tell him everything.

Or birthday-card boy. Sure it didn't work out the way I wanted it too but I still love the kid. He understands me in a way that most people won't and he's supportive and kind. I'm not bitter and I'm actually glad that we ended up as friends in a way.

But there is one relationship I didn't fix. So there's this girlie that I used to do everything with. Literally. Debate, science, math, school, every damn thing. But then jealousy and miscommunication and suspicion got in the way. I haven't said two words to her this entire school year. I just can't get myself to reconciliate and forgive and forget. But part of me is glad I severed the ties because I don't think I was really all that happy being her friend. Someone who hides what they're doing from you just so that they can get ahead, someone who turns her back on you and shuns you out, someone who will use you only to leave you... that's not what a friend is. I'm glad we aren't speaking.